YEY!

Dear Kitties,

I had a talk with my PI last week and as I usually feel after talking to him, I feel sooooo super re-energized and much more focused!
Here are a list of GOOD things that happend in the meeting.
1) He told me I needed to start studying for Qual.
2) He told me that I was a smart person and that right now all I needed was perserverence.
3) He told me I am not a postdoc so stop trying to be one or comparing myself to them.
4) I told him what was my Back Up plan if my first project fails. It felt great telling him my own ideas and him approving of them. yooopeee!
5) I told him how I REALLY felt about the lab. So now he knows whats wrong with me.
6) He realized I was depressed and frustrated without me telling him anything and the reason why this conversation happend was because HE asked me to meet with him.
7) On several occasions he told me he understood why I was so disillusioned and depressed.


This week I've been doing a million experiments.. I don't know if it is all the merengue I've been listening to on Itunes in the P3, the music CD I brought from my Moms, or the the meeting itself, or the fact that I have lab meeting next week but I feel like a million bucks!
Which has made me wonder, why do my emotions have to be soooo extreme? Am I manic depressive? Cause I have NO problem taking medicine if that is what I need. They often say that Manic depressive people don't take their medicines because the HIGHS feel so good...
Well not for me. The highs are soooo rare.... that they are not worth risking the lows..
Well I guess I'll soon find out when if I ever start therapy.

But for now.... YEY------------!