shoot me yesterday

2 weekends lost to this test, 2

My transfections didn't work. My fusion assay results look funny, even though I did everything perfectly fine. So the conclusion to this experiment is that I have absolutely no results for my next lab meeting.
This week I have a test on Thursday. yeah originally I thought it was Monday but then my friends told me it was on Thursday and I slacked on the studying. Now I am stuck at home studying for this test without results for next lab meeting.

This does not help my confidence at all. Some day I am going to have to get off this yo-yo of emotional rollercoaster. When I am doing good in presentations or in lab it is great I love my self and everything around me. When nothing is working I want to die. I wish I could be a little more uncaring about it all.

So eventhough I have a test on thursday. I am going to be transfecting cells on Wensday so that by the weekend I can have some virus and maybe do a fusion assay or two before lab meeting.
Rushed results never come out good so I need a miracle.

Shoot me now please so that my torture can end. :)