Hello Berkeley and black boxes

Today, I finished my first official Western Blot. I did have to ask Rick for help several times, and being the psycho that I am, I hate the fact that I needed help. I am in LOVE with this lab. It scares me how much I like it. Cause remember on Post #1 what I was saying? I am not used to hapiness, I am not used to friends, I am not used to loving someone and being loved. I am not used to actually wanting to go to work.

I woke up today at 5:45 am. I got to work at 7:30 am. But in between those hours, when I was eating breakfast at home, I thought "I got to get to work," when I was walking, "It will be soooo awesome if the Western Blot works," and then I got to work. I got to the lab. And there was not one soul in the whole 3rd floor of the building! And that was like the highlight of the dawn. Then I punched my code into the door without having to look at the post it where it was written and I smiled. Then I walked in, the lights were off, I put my bookbag down, I walked out to the cold room, got my western blot, came back and put the blocking buffer in the western blots black box...And I just melted inside with hapiness. I felt like the lab was all mine. I could do anything I wanted with it. And there was just NO one there to help me.
Rick came in around 10 or 9, I don't know, don't care the great thing is that I didn't need him. Don't get me wrong Rick is awesome, but independence is soooooooo f-ckin delicious.

God please let things continue just as smoothly as they've been til now.
I have to present in lab meeting. I am scared. But for the first time eversince they told me that I had to present, I am also excited. I have to write up a propolsal, on my project, and I am excited.

I need to start working out. I am 20 pounds heavier than what I want to be. I feel fat, I feel the fat flopping over (eeeeuuuu) eachother, and I hate it. Thats not exciting. Not exciting at all. Yeah I am starting to loose that feeling that everyone in the world in every room wants to f-ck me. Yeah...I've lost that loving feeling. And I WANT IT BACK! Yeah i know i am self centered and absorved. Who the hell isn't the point of this paragraph is that I miss feeling like everyone in the room, well atleast the male popultaion, the female population has always hated me and always will.
Oh talking about females that hate me, the John Hopkins Bitch told me to shut up today. I had to stop my self from punching her little white nose off. She has these blue eyes....They are just so cold....They look like hawk eyes, you know very focused, no mercy, looking for her kill. Thats all she does. I hope she catches scabies. OH sorry. I let myself go there.
Anyways guys, I love you. I miss you....Hey how about some comments?!!!!!!!!!!
Is anyone out there anyway?