Forgetting this week

We all had a bad week here. It has just been crazy. None of our experiments worked this week. Yesterday morning I was talking to Tania and Sheri and telling them that all we needed now was a death in the family. But I spoke too soon. Tania may actually have to go to NYC next week because a new family member of hers, an infant niece, is sick.

We are all graduate students. What does that mean? We take pride in the pain that we can take. We don't like people to think that we can't take crap so most of the time when we are going through hell you'll hear us repeat many times, "I'll be okay. This is nothing. I've been through worse." The way to know if a graduate student is "actually" going to be okay is that after she/he says these little comments, if they sigh, then that means they are NOT okay at all. They are just saying they are okay so that you can have the opportunity to walk away and ignore them, like many fake idiots around them do. This is also a strategy many graduate students use. They tell you that they are okay, unconsciously sigh, and then if you walk away you are forever labeled as an idiotic fake butthead. It is just that simple. Yes, it only takes that little.

So yesterday morning, Sheri was sighing away, I was on the verge of tears, just like I had been for the last 3 days, and Tania was sighing away too. Remember Tania only recently joined our "Scoobie Doo Gang" so she doesn't realize yet that we are real people. So when she said, "I'm over it. I'm okay." (She was referring to being kicked out of Oldfrows lab. {She didn't know about her niece yet})
I said, "You don't have to be strong for us Tania, just be miserable, we understand".... We couldn't stop sighing. We couldn't complain anymore. Sheri said, "I need the party today cause I want to forget about all this."

I said,"Why don't we just go to my place? I'll make you guys dinner, we'll buy some cookies, watch a movie or two. You guys can even stay over. That way I'll be home, where I want to be, Carlos will be fed the minute he gets home and we can all 'just forget' "...
So we got together at my place and it was just so much fun and relaxing. We shot the shit (talking). I finally got the chance to show them my baby pictures and my modeling pictures. I think now they can understand why I believe myself to be fat.
We talked about so many things that I don't even remember. Oh and Tania actually liked my paintings. {Sigh...I miss painting}

We watched Under The Tuscan Sun. I cooked my salmon alfredo fettucini. And we drank baileys, beer, wine, grape juice, water. We ate cookies. We also watched the beginning of Monsters Inc. Sheri had not watched under the tuscan sun and Maria had not seen Monsters Inc. Carlos started snoring (literally) around 1 am. Sheri got real tired all the sudden, and everybody left.