Changing my life

Hi kitties.

Lately I've been questioning everything. Well isn't that me always? Hahah!
Anyways I guess the thing that has been going on now is that I feel so trapped in this routine.
All I wanna to do is get the hell out of California. Get the hell out of this career. And never ever look back.

I am very passionate about my work but I am exhausted and lately....Everything I used to like about it is just not enough. Lets face it. It is not like I am talented enough to discover anything important. It is not like I am going to change the field. So why oh why oh WHY waste all this energy? Career change anyone? I wanna change my life. So ironic how easily movies and religions have made this sound....changing your life.
So tired of being here with out any friends, anyone I can trust, no family....so so so tired. So tired of all the stupid confrontations, back stabbings, friendship breakups, project stealing, isolation, work without reward...should I go on?

In this blog posting the problem is not lab, it is not my boss, it is everything. I think that if I were a vampire I would bury myself 13 feet under, go to sleep, and not come out for the next 100 years.