Friday, April 03, 2009

Too vulgar for me....

Oh...
There is so much going on in my lab it is not even funny. I'm trying to stay out of a lot of trouble. I think people are shocked at how quiet and focused I have been lately. I come in, I put on my headphones, I go to lunch with Brian and then I come back and finish everything.
Still....There are people trying to get me into fights/trouble/conflicts what ever you wanna call it.

Garry, the post doc that I have been working with for a year started talking behind my back.
Asking, precisely, Brian if he thought I was too vulgar. Brian, of course, told me so, and so I confronted Garry. I asked him what was his problem? Where was this coming from cause it is not like I got even more vulgar in the last three months than what I have been especially because (see above) I haven't been talking to anyone for 1 month. He tells me that it is not that I am a vulgar person. This I do not comprehend because if you are calling a person vulgar then you are saying they are a vulgar person. As far as I know there are no in betweens, no mildly vulgar or anything like that. So he went on to explain that I had said something that offended him and that he didn't like.... etc.

He is right. I am vulgar. I curse. I tell people things as crudely as possible so that I don't have any misunderstandings etc. Let me repeat myself. I know that I am vulgar.

What bothers me about all of this is that I don't try to change co-workers from what they are. For instance I don't go around asking people if they think Garry is a hypocritical asshole. I talk about Garry yes. I complain about all the back stabbings his accomplished on me but I don't go around questioning how he is. In fact I often think, oh well, that is how Garry is... What can you do? And I enjoy all the stupid crap that comes out of his mouth all the time. If I have to take how Garry's personality is and how everyone else personalities are in the lab why the hell can't they take me?

Doesn't matter really. This experience has shown me another light of Garry. Even after he apologized to me he still went back and talked some more about me to Brian. Amazing. Even after the apology. How stupid can you be? And how full of crap? Whats funny is that it is not the curse words that offend these people is the fact that I say things as they are. No anesthesia...

So tired of getting my personality questioned. Is there anything that this people are going to leave in tact? So exhausted.

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