I was so enthustiastic about coming to UC Berkeley for such a long time. I even thought for quite a while that I didn't deserve such good luck that I wasn't good enough....Now the professors are showing their true colors.
The professor that I am rotating with now, had promised me that I would be working with HIV and HCMV...Now he is dancing around the bush. He doesn't really want me to work with HIV. I feel like I've been duped. I feel like a fool. It hurts so badly because I've fallen in love with the people in the lab, but more than that I was in LOVE with my project on co-infection.
I should have figured that the rain cloud would be approaching soon.
I know that it is hard for people that are not in the sciences to understand but I mourned my project. I feel so bad. This whole week so far, I've had spontaneous fits of crying. Two mornings ago I almost started crying in the lab. Yesterday I started crying when we were doing our homework. It is just a bad week, I keep telling myself and Maria.
I do have a second plan. I am going to contact some professors at UCSF to see if I can rotate through their lab. Hopefully the labs will await me with open arms. Hopefully the professors don't lie to me, hopefully they are not psychotic!
I am excited, there is a professor working on HIV and NKT cells. It sounds like the perfect project for me. I dont even know where UCSF is.
I feel abandoned, isolated...
Palabras prestadas de Ana María Shua
2 months ago
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Aw, stinky. Of course I don't know the whole story, but from my wise old perspective I can give you this piece of advice - don't get too attached to your rotation projects. I mean if the PI is being an ass that's a bad sign, but not getting results or having a boring project is pretty normal for a rotation and doesn't mean much for what your thesis project would be if you joined. Plus even if you do get results you still don't get to follow them up in most cases.
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